>> apologies for the depressing post. You have been forewarned. But maybe the pic will make up for the words..!
I've got insomnia.
I can't get to bed- and it's 3am in the morning!
Well, it's been a week of excitement, considering that it's only a week out from exams.. Because you would usually think we would be in social isolation right about now.
Anyway, What shall i say, except that i'm sick of losing.
Losing to the world. in general. that is. sick of being the one that's always there, being the person everyone leans on and who smiles and is known as the nice girl. the one that people forget about. forget about when they have moved on and don't need someone to listen to their problems. i've always been in the background and i thought that i had changed that. but it doesn't seem that way now. i guess i was wrong. you can't change who you are. what you do. how you behave. perhaps i'll always be that person. that nice person. i think i need to vent. where's Emily when you need her??
i don't know. sometimes i feel really down and isolated here. in adelaide. like there's nothing here for me.
at the beginning of this year, i promised myself that i would be an optimist. give it a change. see if it would bring me closer to something. you know- positive attitude and all that bullshit. you can't change who you are and pessimism is just me.
perhaps it's just that i hide myself well.
perhaps. perhaps it's just.
sigh. sometimes people suck.
>>Edit: This is exactly part of what i'm raving on about... part of..